The Biggest Monster

Repression.
I don't talk openly about my feelings too often, other than the quick "I'm sad/I'm hungry/I'm tired...etc."
I don't like talking about my feelings because honestly, people won't understand me. Most of them just tell me "Oh, cheer up" or "That's okay...it'll get better".
Really, the only person I can tell my feelings to is Binnie Truong. He doesn't give me that comfort that most people do. For instance, if I said, "Binnie, I'm pissed at life and I know it's not gonna get any better and I hate this. I just wish I'd die," he would say, "Yeah, me too. F*ck life. Let's die together." And that, my friend, is one of the reasons why I love him. He's so easily relatable.
The monster is when my anger just randomly comes out. I repress all my anger. I know it's not healthy for me, but I can't help it. Most of the time, I hold it in because I know it's not the right time to be angry. I let it out at the most unexpected times though. I hate this about me.
I'm easily upset. I take things too personally, but it keeps me on my toes. I know you can't trust everyone. So I don't. I've shown my true self to maybe one or two people. Gladly, these people are still in my life. They accept me<3;
But if I were to show you the real me, you wouldn't be in my life, trust me. The biggest monster, without a doubt, is me.