Monotonous.

Lately I've been feeling very... trapped in my own body. Like everyday that's passing is just me trying to get through it. I feel like an android almost. I can't bring myself to be happy with anyone, and I can't be pleased with myself either. I feel like I have to constantly better myself, which I know everyone strives to do. However, I feel like it's pressured upon me, like I can't do it in my own time. I feel like I'm half doing everything. Like it's only one part of many that I'm accomplishing. Very monotonous of me. I don't like it. I'm trying to break free.