The Ugliest Thing

It's normal for a stranger to hurt you, for they know not of you. It's hideous if your best friend turns against you, for trust is easy to start with and hard to get back. However, the most ugly thing is when sisters become enemies.

How can someone with the same blood flowing through you choose a stranger over you?

Sisters are supposed to...
Have late night conversations about boys.
Paint each other's nails.
Do each other's hair.
Share dolls.
Play house.
Have tea parties.

You always say, "You're so vain. So conceited and full of yourself." I'm a girl. Maybe God gave you the wrong body. Because of you, I feel so stupid and vain. So conceited, I try not to look in the mirror when I leave the house. I try not to care. When I see my other friends, I feel accepted. I feel normal because they do the same things I do. They wake up early in the morning to get ready. They wear different shoes everyday. Their hair looks different. I'm just a girl. But I feel so full of myself everytime I look in the mirror because you say, "Fuck, you're hideous enough, are you fucking ready to leave? How much more hideous can you get?"
I do it myself.

I can control boys easily.
I do my own nails
My own hair.
Hitting me on the head with your bouncy ball.
Breaking the body parts off my Barbies and taunting me.
Can you blame me if I'd rather not pretend to get shot in the head by your invisible gun?

You're my sister, not my brother. The ugliest thing is, you make me wish I was less of who I am, and more of who I'll never be. Something I can never be.