Why do people insist on telling me that I'm someone I know I'm not? That I'm talented and caring and all those lies? Don't they know that all they're really doing is setting an expectation for me? I'm not the kind that wants to let people down, I'll give myself credit for that. And for only that.
Gosh, today? One of the worst days of my life. I can't explain to myself why I'm crying or why I'm feeling so much pain. I thought I was okay. What happened? What made the difference between today and yesterday?
I don't like questioning God. But where the hell are You? Why is it that I'm left here alone crying in my room? Why does my chest hurt so much? Why does it feel so heavy and unbearable?
I just wish people would realize that I'm not who they think I am. Behind this smile is a person that feeds off the unfortunate pain of others. I'm horrible. Don't trust me.
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