The Sunshine Kind

So begins my official summer! Today is Monday, and it hasn't really sunk in that I have no classes. It's alright though, I'm sure it'll become apparent soon.

Woke up to sunshine hitting me in the face and the birds that sounded familiar. They sound so much better than the ones in Cancun. They look better too. I went to sleep pretty early last night. Yesterday was a long day for me, but it also made me realize a lot. There's a lot of perspectives about me. I guess I shouldn't be too surprised because I put up different fronts with people. To one of my best friends, I'm the goody-goody. And to the other, I'm the most out there. I guess you just can't really rely on the perspective of one person, that wouldn't be very accurate because of the diversity of how we view others.

So Monday morning. I'm sitting in my bed with my laptop on my lap and listening to a playlist my ex boyfriend made for me. It's apparent that I'm not over him. But I'm grateful that we're just friends and that he was honest to me about his feelings. If any jerk had ever broken my heart, he's been the most gentle about it. Gives me thought about how I shouldn't just play around with other's feelings. I always say, "Boys are just boys just as pigs are just pigs." He proved that wrong for me. He was... dare I say sweet? I just wish there were more guys like him. I was lucky to have that hopeless romantic. Although we still remain friends, I sometimes wish he would just come and take me away for the day. Reality is at it's peak however, and I have no time for such fairytales. It's summer, time to do more practical things.