The Sunshine Kind

So begins my official summer! Today is Monday, and it hasn't really sunk in that I have no classes. It's alright though, I'm sure it'll become apparent soon.

Woke up to sunshine hitting me in the face and the birds that sounded familiar. They sound so much better than the ones in Cancun. They look better too. I went to sleep pretty early last night. Yesterday was a long day for me, but it also made me realize a lot. There's a lot of perspectives about me. I guess I shouldn't be too surprised because I put up different fronts with people. To one of my best friends, I'm the goody-goody. And to the other, I'm the most out there. I guess you just can't really rely on the perspective of one person, that wouldn't be very accurate because of the diversity of how we view others.

So Monday morning. I'm sitting in my bed with my laptop on my lap and listening to a playlist my ex boyfriend made for me. It's apparent that I'm not over him. But I'm grateful that we're just friends and that he was honest to me about his feelings. If any jerk had ever broken my heart, he's been the most gentle about it. Gives me thought about how I shouldn't just play around with other's feelings. I always say, "Boys are just boys just as pigs are just pigs." He proved that wrong for me. He was... dare I say sweet? I just wish there were more guys like him. I was lucky to have that hopeless romantic. Although we still remain friends, I sometimes wish he would just come and take me away for the day. Reality is at it's peak however, and I have no time for such fairytales. It's summer, time to do more practical things.

Cancun

Well, I just got back two days ago from my trip to Cancun. It was sooo gorgeous! Sandy white beaches, clear blue carribean sea!<3 I fell in love with the place! Gosh, one thing I did not fall in love with? The buffets! Gosh, eating in those restaurants for 6 days is just no fun! I'm so glad I'm back home so I can eat all the Asian food I want!<333 The heat wasn't that bad surprisingly. It was only 90 degrees or so. So my parents bought a vacation packet! That means I can come back there as many times as I want for the next 30 years! We have unlimited suite access too :D So my mom said I can take all my girls, providing that they pay for their own food and flights.
I went to see the ruins of one of the biggest Mayan pyramids in the world. Damn, it was so hot there, I almost fainted! But I also went to Xel-Ha, which is natural water park. I got to swim with the fishies! :) And I saw the dolphins! They're so cute!

The only downside to my trip was the last flight home from Houston to LA. I'm going to call it the flight from Hell. I'm like, really sick now. I can't even get out of bed. No! It's not swine flu! Shut up! I'm so tired. So yay! I'm back in California! But I sure miss Cancun!

Broken Clocks

So we tried and we failed. I guess time did us no harm, but it just wasn't there to begin with. It's like even if we tried in the past, it would still lead us here right? It would lead us to different people.
So there's like, a few days left of school. I'm so stressed about Chemistry final. I should be studying right now, but eh. I hope I do well! Pray for me :)
I just found out some very disappointing news, not telling.
I don't know how to respond to a confession.
I'm so happy summer is coming<3
SAYONARA school!
Binnie deserves SO much better.
Is it bad I still miss him?
Boys are so asdfghjkl;' right now though.
I hate this little fucker :) I hope he burns in hell, bitch face!
Bye.

Secret

So today started out pretty blah. So my dad dropped my older sister and I off at our high school and we proceeded out the car. Except, I wasn't completely out the car yet, and my dad drove on just as I was stepping out. We have one of those cars where you have to slide the door open. Too bad, the car door slid right into my leg as I was getting out. Yes, ouch. My sister and I had an argument this morning. It was horrible. But things are okay now. Actually, they're better than okay! But I'm feeling a little resentment... I hope things are okay financially.

Okay, one week left of school. Seriously. I need to work my ass off to make it worthy of my approval. So I'm planning to give it my all. I can do this. I WILL fix things.




To meet someone again and again, is to fall in love with them. NTK<3

Straightfoward

So my mom says I'm way too straightforward, and it's not nice. No offense, but I never said I wanted to be nice. I want to be real. So yes, I'm sorry if I have ever told you something you didn't want to hear. I'm just so sick of everyone in high school being so fake. You know when you walk around campus you see some girls hug each other and say, "Oh hey girl! What's up?! I love you bitch!" and stuff like that? Isn't it hilarious when everyone in the world already knows they're public enemies even though they put up a front like that? Yeah, so I won't ever be like that. It's sickening.

Haha, I just notice I always blog about the randomest things and how I'm feeling, never about my day. Maybe I should start :)

Peculiar

Using someone to try to make me jealous. Well, ain't that low? I can see straight through his plan. Whatever.


MESA banquet today! Awww, Duy missed it ): He won't see me for another very long time. He got sick though, forgivable. Hope he gets better. I can't believe Binnie stole a cart from Ralphs... that's horrible, homie. So anyway, banquet was... it was okay. I guess I had too high of expectations for it. But it was okay to me. I can't believe how much better I get along with someone though. I used to not be able to stand him. Now I'm okay with him... haha, but he still talks way too much. Funny lines from people today:

Grace&Linh: Tiffany, wanna do the dance?
Steven: Everything tastes better with sand.
Binnie: Binnie make fire! *rolls tongue*
Louis: I'll go find sugar for you!
Haylie: I'll make him eat all that sugar he left in the car on the way home!
Arlene: It's a canOHpy!
Quynh: Those are words of a true geek right there!
Michelle: I'm trying to plant a clam...
JoJo: Why isn't she in the kitchen?!

Behind Enemy Lines

Someone caught me off guard today. Struck me right when I took off my armor. Weaknesses are just apart of who you are, I guess. You have to be careful as to whom to reveal them to though.

I'm glad today happened though.

Pushover

I always let things be okay. Why can't I hold grudges?! Ugh. Going in mad, I think that I'll stay mad for a long time. Guess what? I never do. I'm always the type that doesn't stay mad for long. I know it's a good thing, but it makes me mad at myself. It's like I'm just letting people get away with it. I don't like it. Okay... blah blah.

The song that describes how I'm feeling right now is Darkness 'Round the Sun. Check it out on YouTube! I have a YouTube app. to the left of my page :)

Bucket List

Things I must accomplish before I die!:

• Go to Venice with sbgf Binnie
• Take my mom back to Vietnam
• Get my dad to stop smoking
• Break life's repitition
• Save someone's life in every way possible
• Witness a period of time when all the world is at peace
• Find my "meant to be"
• Get married in the church I grew up in
• Become a mother
• Raise my children into proper members of society and church
• Go to SeaWorld with my bff Kevin
• Become a grandmother
• Have a wall full of pictures in frames
• Grow old and still in love with my hubby
• Live to witness 111 beach sunsets

Southern Sky

So when you really think about it, and I don't mean giving it a second of thought. I mean, when you really do think about it all: you, your life, and who you're meant to be; sometimes it's all too much to take on at just one point in time. But no matter how off track one gets in life, one is never completely off track to be destined to failure. There's always time. As long as there is air to breathe, there's always time to turn, if not anything, a few things wrong in your life right.


Where you are in life is the product of the choices you make.