Bad Guy

You know that feeling you get when everyone you thought was on your side, is actually opposed to you? I feel like I did something wrong, like I'm the bad guy. I feel like I'm the one to blame for everything. I feel like I have no say in what things should be like. I feel like I'm on my own. Which is okay, because I don't really care walking alone. But I shouldn't have to take the crap that is given to me. Yeah, I know I'm a bitch. It's just who I am, it's how you can tell I'm really honest. I know I'm not the best person, but I'm trying to better myself. I think pity is unnecessary in this situation. If you feel bad, fine. But don't blame it on me.
Anyway... on a happier note...

I went to Albertson's today because they were having a sale on their cookies today! I really love them, ahaha. So anyway, I guess I was so excited that I actually told everyone about it. By the car ride there made me really tired though, and I didn't feel like walking into the store. But I got my cookies :) And now they're in my tummy. I love them, they're so good! Okay done!

Interview

Yeah, needless to say, I was kinda DEATHLY afraid? But luckily, they told us we could interview in groups! So I was interviewed with one of my BEST friends, Ciarra. Lucky me :) By the way, you should really check out her videos on YouTube! She's amazing!http://www.youtube.com/user/CiarraMarie03 FALL IN LOVE AND SUBSCRIBE! Anyway... we waited to be interviewed by Theresa, 'cause we love her. The interview went really smoothly; I guess I was afraid for nothing... haha. Stupid Johnny kept throwing pens at me; I wanted to slap him. He's so weird. My interview ended at 7:30, but I stayed longer than I should have. Ummm, I guess that was kinda the highlight of my day. Everything else is no bueno. I'm tired from the meet. Ummm, I'm so tired of boys right now. There's too many... haha. Time to switch teams! Haha, I don't know.

Makes Me Laugh

I think it's kinda funny when people do things that they think will make me jealous.
I get a good laugh from it all, haha. I love you people, you make my day a whole lot better ;)

OH YEAH! Just about one of the COOLEST people in the world that I know just made me this new awesome screen name! But it's a secret, I won't tell you what it is. 'Cause I only talk to cool people on it. Bye.

Just Another Day...

Today I'm pretty tired... I sincerely hate block scheduling. It makes me feel like my school day is dragged out longer than usual. So, tomorrow is my last chance to qualify for League's. I hope I make it... It's also my confirmation interview tomorrow, so I have to leave right after track to get there. To be honest, I'm not happy right now. I feel like everyone is expecting something of me and the pressure is hard to handle. Since I had a lot of time on my hands today, I got to thinking about a lot of things. Particularly, things that have happened recently. I don't know, I just hope that the friendships that I've worked so hard to build don't fall apart on me. I don't want that happening again. I've also come to realize that I need a person (I let walk out of my life last year) more than I thought I did. So hard to say, I really miss him being my best friend. Maybe it was my fault. He did all the trying and I did nothing... I don't remember what even lead to fights in the first place. All I know is that, I'm starting to miss him and the friendship we had for countless years. Ehh, I'm done. Oh yeah, I hate liars. I never wanna make friends with someone like that again. Gosh...