Bipolar?

(11:04:18 PM): One more thing. Idk how I can fall for someone who breaks other peoples heart so carelessly. Someone like that is not the right person for me.
fuh rikanTiffany (11:04:44 PM): i'm glad you realized
(11:05:29 PM): And I still can't believe that anyone can be so cruel as to do such a thing
fuh rikanTiffany (11:05:42 PM): yup
fuh rikanTiffany (11:05:44 PM): i know
(11:07:03 PM): Someone like that cannot be a child of God. that's just what I think
fuh rikanTiffany (11:07:20 PM): wow.
fuh rikanTiffany (11:07:21 PM): okay
(11:12:20 PM): That was wrong. Forget I said that. I wasn't thinking again.
fuh rikanTiffany (11:14:06 PM): then why'd you say it?
(11:15:21 PM): I just felt angry that I wanted to get at you with something but anger only leads to hatred and God teaches us to love one another
fuh rikanTiffany (11:15:51 PM): -______- whatever.
fuh rikanTiffany (11:15:54 PM): just go to sleep
fuh rikanTiffany (11:15:57 PM): i'm done talking

Wow, boys are so stupid! Yeaaaah, I'm a heart breaker. I'm sorry. It's immature of me, but I deal with it like a responsible person. Yup, cruel can describe me. Hey, I never said I was nice. Just grow up, would you? You're in high school now. No one cares if some bitch breaks your heart. It's not that big a deal. Stop creating drama where there is none. And dang, stop being so bipolar. Stop calling. It's pissing me off.

Liars Breed Liars

Lost a best friend today. Over what? A liar. I hate this guy. I hate him. Hate his guts. Everything I used to like about him, hate about him. I'm so tired of trying to make things work. Trying to get my best friend back. Tired of seeing my best friend hang out with him instead of me. Tired of seeing them text each other. Tired of my best friend calling him his best friend instead of me. Yes, I'm jealous. I'm not usually a jealous person. I'm furious now. What can I say? Liars will only breed more liars. And more lies mean more pain for Tiffany. I'm done. Tired of trying to win my best friend back.

Strange...

Why does my heart hurt all of the sudden when I intentionally ignore you? Now I miss you, DFT.

Reminiscing

전에, 내가 거기에 다른 사람이되지 않을 수 있다고 생각하지만, 당신과 나. 난 그 누군가가 나를 위해 당신보다 더 완벽하게되지 않을 수 있다고 생각합니다. 하지만 지금은 괜찮 아요. 나는 내가 생각했던 것보다 더 강하거든요. 내가 다시보고 말하고, "왜 내가 그 얘기를하는거야?"될 수있을 필요가없습니다 마치 내가 그랬던 것 때문에, 당신은 필요하지 않습니다. 시간이 좀 강해졌다. 하지만 가끔은 내가 아직도 당신을 그리워 나쁜 것일까요? 난 아직도 "이 질문을 어떻게 ...?" 때때로. 나는 가끔은 걸어서 학교 주변과 당신이 바로 내 과거를 걸어 볼 수있다. 재미있은 우리가 어떻게 이렇게 가까이해야하고 사용 지금 우리는 거의 모르는 사람이야. 난 그냥 궁금 너 혹시 내 생각?

I Wish

I wish I lived in a world where there are constant reasons to be happy, one after the other. I wish I lived in a world where you wake up to see the sun every morning. I wish I lived in a world where rainbows are so easily visible after a shower. I wish I lived in a world where my family were always supportive. I wish I lived in a world where everyone held hands and war wouldn't ever exist. I wish I lived in a world where there was just, constant love. But I don't. I live in a world with constant reasons to be frustrated, one after the other. I live in a world where there's not a lot of sun that can see you through the clouds. I live in a world where rainbows are rare to find after troubles. I live in a world where I will never build up to the expectations given to me by my family. I live in a world where there's drugs, alcohol, addiction, death, abortion, human trafficking, slavery, poverty, hate.

But I know that wishing will do you no good. That's why I support for a better life. For all of us.

Won't you?... http://www.values.com/

20 Secrets

1. I'm scared of flickering lights.
2. I like dating older guys who can drive.
3. I think I'm still attracted to the person that hurt me the most.
4. I wish I didn't walk away.
5. I don't regret anything that I've done in the past few months.
6. I'm never prepared to fall in love, but I'm always prepared to fall out of it.
7. I always think about how a boyfriend and I will break up when I first get together with him.
8. I like a freshman. Hey! I know a lot of girls that do!
9. I like two of the same kind.
10. I joined track and field for the completely wrong reasons - a boy. So stupid...
11. I made a promise to my mom that I would never run away, and I never have, never will.
12. I'm a flirt, but that's no secret.
13. I don't like talking to people on the phone for too long unless I'm comfortable with them.
14. I hate it when kids in elementary school already know cuss words and use them. Number one pet peeve.
15. I don't like the color pink too much. Guess what color the majority of my room is...
16. I've never imagined my wedding before (with exception of wedding songs, haha).
17. I say that I don't care anymore, but I still wish my dad didn't smoke because I still love him.
18. I don't like perfectionists; I guess I don't like myself.
19. I let my head do too much of the thinking when my heart should have its say.
20. I'll probably deny most of these secrets if you ask me in person :)

You Ever Get That Feeling?

You ever get that feeling? Like, when you're sitting in your room doing whatever it is you do, you stop. You think. And then you just get this... feeling. I would imagine is different for everyone. Mine, however, is melancholy. I feel kind of... bored of life, really. I feel like life is too repetitive, just like the seasons we go through every year. It's just a constant high and low. People expect too much of you and you can't really seem to make those expectations. I go through my days trying hard to smile and be happy, but inside I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. No one ever does hear me though. Or, they do. It's just no one cares enough to listen. Maybe this is the price of the air we breathe. I never get...excited anymore. Do you remember when you were a kid? Your parents may have taken you on a big trip somewhere, be it the amusement park or out of state or country. You could hardly sleep through the night because you were just rocketed with excitement and anticipation. I never get that feeling anymore. When important dates come, I just go through it like any other day. Feels like happiness is sucked completely out of my life. Feels like everyone can see it, but no one cares enough to make me happy. Feels like constant expectations. Feels like... just life in general.


There's gotta be more than this...