Easy

Let's not deny it. You would be better off without me. All of you would be better off without me. All I do is complicate your life and drag you down with me. Friends aren't supposed to do that. Friends are supposed to make your life easier. With all the stress and complications, friends are supposed to relieve you from that. But clearly, I am incapable of that. I don't do enough. It's not because I don't care though. I just don't know how. I suck at comforting people. That's why when people come to me with their problems and frustrations, I malfunction. I'm not the type to know what to say at the right time; all I can do is listen and give you very little feedback.

So let's make this easy, shall we? The less interaction you have with me, the better off you are.

Tagged

I've been tagged ): And usually, I wouldn't do these types of things, but I am because I'm bored out of my mind. I'm not feeling really well either. Maybe it's the weather; it's probably bringing me down. It's okay. I'll live. We all will. Okay, let's get started, shall we?

50 Random Things

1. I have an obsession with high heels, but I've never worn anything higher than 4'.
2. I look horrible in hats.
3. My long hair is pissing me off because it's high maintenance.
4. I miss my best friend and I wish she were at my school again.
5. I'm becoming more Facebook addicted.
6. I'm scared the world will end in 2012.
7. I absolutely hate bugs, especially mosquitoes, cicadas, and june bugs.
8. Sadly, I'm a DG.
9. My favorite flower is the Himalayan Lily; it takes SEVEN years to grow completely...yeah.
10. I wish I were chubbier ): LOL.
11. I was born with speech impairment, but you can barely notice it now other than my small stuttering problem :)
12. I'm scared of the dark and I refuse to sleep with my legs dangling out over my bed.
13. I have an intense fear of people leaving me, but I know not everyone stays.
14. I'm nervous to take AP exams.
15. I stay up for no reason... well, maybe there is a reason ;)
16. I miss my grandma...
17. I won't live up to expectations, so stop expecting and just accept.
18. I use my laptop while in the shower. I know, I'm amazing.
19. I need texting, MOM, DAD!
20. My lower back hurts most of the time.
21. I really don't care much about my health.
22. I get sick easily, but I haven't much this year :)
23. I'm not a morning person.
24. I wish I were a little kid again.
25. I don't throw around "I love yous".
26. My favorite genre of books is non-fiction :)
27. I'm not a huge Sci-Fi fan.
28. I don't like watching action movies much either.
29. I like apple juice :)
30. I absolutely adore children.
31. I am in more ways like my mother than anyone else.
32. Some days, I come home, pour out my soul to my mom and hug her for a really long time.
33. Rainbow jelly > boba, always.
34. My love life is like Romeo and Juliet... no joke. It sucks.
35. I like crazy teachers, haha. Outgoing ones.
36. GMH > FML > MLIA.
37. My 11:11 wishes are actually prayers because I always say "Lord, I wish..." I just noticed that.. haha
38. English/Linguistics > Math
39. I speak Spanish better than Vietnamese... probably.
40. I have a fetish for dolphins.
41. I don't like bananas... but I'll eat them anyway because I'm bored.
42. I want to return to Cancun whenever I get the chance.
43. I wish more families were close like my mom's side.
44. Chest hair freaks me out. That is ...not attractive.
45. I'm not big on studying.
46. I want to be a pediatric nurse... or something that involves caring for children :)
47. Big to you is not big to me.
48. When I spend more than $30 on ONE thing, I feel horrible.
49. I can't really tell when there's an earthquake.
50. I like versatile music that other people probably hate.

Okay done! So I'm going to tag...



Just kidding! Heck, I'm not gonna tag anyone :)

Sick, Sicken, Sunk.

I'm sick of all this bull. All this crap. I'm sick of it. I'm giving up. Tear me from limb to limb if you must. Grate me of my dignity if it is necessary. I've given up. I can't take this anymore. I'm tired of this. I don't wanna fight anymore. I don't wanna be upset anymore. I just wanna be...nothing. I don't wanna feel anything. I couldn't care less if it were happiness. I'd give up experiencing emotions if it meant giving up all this hurt and all this crap that is loitering my life.

Wo bu pa, dai wo zou.

Regress/Progress?

HappyMonsters makes me happy (: Just sayin'.

Remember when I said I could regress? Well, now I wanna grow up faster. I'm confusing, I know.
Um, it's pretty late right now, but I can't sleep. I keep thinking of things... how things would be different if I made different choices... Would I be happier than I am now? Or would I just have made things worse?

Well, I don't know, but whatever. I'm happy right now. I've got everything and everyone I need. That's all I should ask for right?



Right.

Old Love

You can't deny it. When you see an old couple in love, you want that. But the sad truth of it is, most people don't stay in love forever. I mean, they might, but the chances of them showing it is slim to none. I can't help but notice that the majority of these couples are white. I'm not being racist or anything, but how often do you see an Asian old couple holding hands? Things like that are rarely seen. Although, I saw it ONCE. This old man and woman - both Asian - were waiting to cross the street. The old lady was holding her groceries and the light signaled them to cross the street. Her husband took her groceries in one hand, took her hand in the other, and lead her across the street. When they had crossed the street, the woman extended her arm to take the groceries back. Her husband smiled, kissed her on the cheek, took her hand again, and they began walking again. Sadly, this is the only encounter I've had with this situation. I don't even see so much as my parents kissing. Are they still in love? Were they ever in love? I don't know. All I know is, I don't want to get married and not be in love during my marriage. I don't care if the gray hairs and the lines come in, I want to be in love and be loved, from beginning to end.